A positive pregnancy test made me feel more emotions at one time than any other time in my entire life. I ran to the store to buy prenatal vitamins out of fear that something would go wrong. Four days later the stabbing pain began. Before I knew it, I went to the hospital, and I was told that my levels were dropping, and I would miscarry. I walked outside with my mother and I remember feeling so angry. I started crying. I kept asking why it seemed so easy for everyone else, but not for me. She grabbed my face with her hands and said “When it is your time, and the right time, it will happen.” I didn’t believe her then, but my mother knew exactly what she was talking about.
A couple of years have gone by sense then. I have left an extremely toxic relationship for a healthy one, and as of right now, I have a healthy bundle of joy in my belly growing at a very fast pace. I have wanted to have a baby for many years, but it was never the right time, until now.
Sometimes I think back over the years and I am amazed of how things fall into place. It sounds crazy, but that is what happened. My life fell into place all on its own. Every choice I made that I thought was wrong, lead me to what was right.
Life has a mysterious way of placing you where it wants you to be. If you make a bad choice, or fight the universe, it will lead you back to where you are meant to be. I can no longer imagine having the life that I wanted with someone different only a couple of years ago. I believe people will know where they are meant to be once they get there. If you feel like you’re home rather than feeling like a stranger in someone elses house, that is where you belong.
Try to remember, when it feels like everything is going wrong, maybe it is going “wrong” for the “right” reasons. Let your life fall into place.