An Open Letter To My Future Wife

To my future wife,

I’m sitting at the dining room table across from your seat. The table is set, dinner is just about ready, the candles are lit, and a bouquet of your favorite flowers await you with a card that reads “just because it’s Wednesday.” I look at the clock and look at the front door wondering where you could be. I begin to worry that you’ll run late and dinner will be cold before you can enjoy it. There’s just one problem, we’re not married yet and we don’t know each other.

Perhaps we know each other already but don’t know we’re destined to be together. Either way, I wanted to write you to let you know a few things.

Life’s road takes us to many places. Allows us to meet so many people and experience so much. The road I’ve been on has been interesting, to say the least. I’ve grown weary and tired traveling it. There have been long stretches where I’ve been alone. Long stretches where I’ve been blessed with good company.

Through it all, I’ve looked forward, gotten up, dusted myself off, and set off down the road again. Because I knew somewhere down the road you be there.

Lately, I’ve grown impatient, frustrated, and angry. Life has a way of when it hits the fan, it’s all over the place.

Over a year ago just about every single relationship in my life fell apart. Starting with a breakup ending with having nearly no friends to lean on. I had a total of three people I could truly count on to allow me to hurt and express it. I’ve come to realize that quality is better than quantity. I also lost a huge amount of faith in God. So brings me to this letter.

You deserve better from me. Not just as your future husband, but as your best friend, and as a man.

I should always trust in God. I haven’t. In some ways, I’ve turned my back on Him and given God the cold shoulder and perhaps that has grown the distance between us.

I am sorry for being impatient. I am sorry for prolonging our meeting by not trusting in God.

I don’t know where or when I will meet you. I hope it is soon.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:13

I need to have faith is God that He will lead me to you, not only when He is ready. But when you and I are both ready. Ready to meet, fall in love, grow together in our faith in God.

I need to have hope. Hope that no matter how cloudy my days seem, there is a bright light that burns inside me because the Lord is the light of the world and if I follow him, I will not walk in darkness.

Most Importantly, have love. Love for God. Love for you. Love for us. Love for myself and know that I must love myself first. So that I can better love you.

With all my Love, Your future Husband

To anyone who has just read this letter, man or woman. If you are in the struggle of find relationships and love. If you are looking for the one and have yet to find them. Don’t give up. It is hard, I know, but the journey isn’t about the destination. It’s about what happens to us along the way. Every time we get knocked down. Anytime we fall. It’s a chance to get up and be stronger because we know how to overcome it.

When you feel so lost that you want to give up, do not be afraid to reach out and ask for help. Strength isn’t built alone. It’s built with friends, family, and faith.

Be patient. Take time to yourself. To love yourself, to get to know you. You are a wonderful person and the world is so much of better place with you in it.

God Bless and Positive Vibes.

Niall Covington

Born with a genetic disorder, Niall knows what it is like to be knocked down. He has been there several times and he has been able to get back up because of faith and a small number of friends. Seeing others getting knocked down, Niall offers a hand whether he has just fallen or is on the way back up himself. Volunteering as a summer camp counselor for children, teens, and young adults with the same disorder, Niall hopes to inspire them to overcome life's road blocks. For Niall, writing for Project Wednesday is an opportunity to reach more people, and to help more.

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