Turkey Day and Santa Claus only come one special time each year.
And of all times of the year, it comes at the end of the year. What are the Holidays about?
Of course, as children, we all just wanted junk food and presents. I still miss those times. I also miss leaving the carrot for Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer. I couldn’t see his shiny nose shine though. But as adults and especially someone like myself with autism, holiday’s can also be a stressful time of the year.
I know no one wants to get fat on the holidays. I don’t either but food doesn’t make me stressed on holidays, it relieves it and that’s how I put on 10 pounds in one day. Sometimes I feel alone on holidays when I see everyone with their significant others and how I haven’t had one most of my life. Sometimes I think about my family’s problems during the holidays as we’re around each other. That’s pretty much the only time we’re all together. I’m sure that’s how it works for all families unless they’re family reunions. I never had one and don’t ask me why. I love my family and it’s about family first and the birth of Christ but I always feel something is missing even though I don’t want to get married yet.
Jealousy starts and that’s when the steam rises up to raise my blood pressure. Then I get stressed on holidays and wish they wouldn’t come. I don’t want to feel like Ebenezer Scrooge and not be in the Christmas spirit. I might have felt that way for past couple of years. But then there was this Christian singer other than my favorite singer Shania Twain who got me in the Christmas spirit. Her name is Amy Grant. Amy Grant sings all of her songs and her Christmas songs with so much heart and they’re so beautiful. I just feel like I’m in another different world. I believed in God more than ever these last few years now too. When I listen to her songs and Christmas songs, it feels like I’m listening to the Lord who’s looking down at me as I know he is.
I use my coping skills and talk things over when I’m feeling stressed on holidays and try not to let things get me down. Holidays are supposed to be a great time of year so please enjoy them stress-free!