When life gets stressful it’s ok to speak up.

I’ve been dealing with so much stress already and it’s only the second week of school. My driver this year is so……. oh how can I put this…….clueless and I feel he has no clue what he’s doing.

This year, it’s not just me taking a van to school by myself like last year. There’s also another wheelchair student on the van with me so it’s even more stressful. But mostly it’s the driver that’s causing the stress not just for me but for everyone involved.

Not only is this diver clueless and doesn’t have an idea what he’s doing, there’s also a huge language barrier which makes it really super hard to communicate with him and help him understand the weekly schedule. In fact, the situation is so stressful that it’s causing my anxiety to flare up badly- I’m so scared that I might have a stress induced panic attack while I’m on the van one day and I do not want to put anyone in a position where they would have to calm me down.

It’s also making me and the new student this year late to class. My anxiety makes me punctual, I don’t like to be late when it comes to school. When my anxiety’s pumping it can throw me off for the rest of the day after I calm down. I know the driver probably doesn’t care that he’s getting us there late every day but guess what…. I do!  It’s not fair to the class or the teacher that they have to start class later because were the last two to come in. I won’t put up with it all year though, no way!

I’m trying to let the situation get better and ease on it’s own, but I can tell in my heart and mind it’s not goanna get better, I could just tell. The advocate part of me is kicking in big time. I know it’s time to bring this situation into better hands.

When my internship stars up again in October, I can’t go into it stressed as I have a new role this year. I will be serving as a Mentor to the new workers coming to work at our campuses Great Center. I need to be on my game and stress free. What’s going on right now needs to be fixed now before it gets any worse. if no one else will speak up, I will.

Lesson for today: When life gets stressful, it’s ok to speak up.  If somethings on your mind and bothering you, don’t hold it in till you explode and have  a mental breakdown! Say what’s on your mid and speak! No, seriously, try it. I promise you will feel so good and proud of yourself afterwards. I know I will!