Without you, I can’t guarantee that I would be me. I can’t guarantee that I’d be the same person that I am. I learn from you every single day, no matter whether we speak or not. I always see how you hold yourself up, how you handle yourself. When it’s your time of need, you don’t rely heavily on others.
I’ve seen you put your brave face on for everyone. I’ve even seen you put your brave face on for me. You’ve never wavered on being there when it’s been necessary. Even when I’m struggling with something nonsensical, you make sure that I know that you’re there. It’s through the little things that happen day-to-day that you show your love. We’ll go over my problems, but you never tell me that one of my episodes is ridiculous.
When others have told me that I am crazy, stupid, annoying, or ridiculous, you’ve never wavered. You’ve stood by me and told me that everything was going to be OK. I know that I’m not great at doing the same for you. I know that I could be a better friend, but sometimes it gets so painfully hard to express my emotions that I wouldn’t know where to start.
I’m an emotional person, and you know that better than most, but my emotions don’t come out in the ways that I mean them to. My emotions come out in every other direction, and I’ll become spastic rather than becoming what I mean to be. You stand by my side through my struggles because I don’t have to tell you what the episodes are actually saying. It’s almost as if you’re in my head.
It’s not always huge gestures that mean the world to me. Sometimes, it’s just someone sitting next to me or sending a message. Sometimes, it’s even just watching a movie with me or pretending to care about the book that I’m reading. I know that a lot of the time, you have no idea what I’m talking about, but you get just as excited as I do about the plot points in these things.
Those small gestures mean the world to me. There are so many things that you do that mean more to me than I’ve ever genuinely expressed. You’ve never shut me down when I get excited about something that I’ve been told is “silly.” You’ve never told me that I was being an “idiot” for doing the opposite of what you suggest. In fact, when I do the opposite of what you advise, and I’m crying my eyes out, you’re always there. Even when you’re half asleep, you make an effort to let me know that you’re with me and you care. Then, first thing in the morning, you’ll ask me about what was actually going on.
When I’m reliving this moment to you, you don’t ever tell me that I was dumb. You don’t fault me for my mistakes. You don’t get on my case when I’m crying over the same dumb boy for the millionth time. You try to comfort me instead, even though I know it hurts you.
You’ve taught me how to be a better friend to the people I care about. From you, I’ve learned how to love people better. You have taught me how to be less insecure in my friendships, even if you’re just sending me silly memes to remind me that I’m loved. They always conveniently come at the perfect time, too.
You’ve taught me to be more patient, especially when someone is reaching out to me. You never get mad when I double-, triple-, or quadruple-text you. You don’t get annoyed with me, and it’s taught me to become less annoyed with others that do the same.
I know that I say this a lot, but I love you. I may not love you in the romantic way, but you’re family. I may not have realized early in my life how important our friendship is, but I feel like I’ve discovered your love at exactly the right time. So, cheers to you, best friend. I love you. Thank you so much for being a part of my life, for everything you’ve taught me, and for being completely, unapologetically you.