The Night I Lied To Myself About My Writing Talent

For the first time since I’ve become a published writer, I had my very first “writer doubt moment.”  I don’t know what came over me, but I suddenly found myself doubting my talent. I immediately shed some tears and felt overwhelmed.

For the readers who don’t know what a “writer doubt moment” is, here’s my personal thought on what I think it means:  not living up to the fullest potential you can have as a writer. When you feel like you’re not doing the best job as a writer, and you start becoming apprehensive about your talent, that my readers, is a “writer doubt moment.” 

It can feel absolutely horrible when you suddenly have this feeling, it might bring your self-esteem down a bit. Here’s a tip if this happens-ask your support system for words of encouragement. I promise you, you will feel so much better. Yes, I did this and I felt so supported and better, I felt like I could do anything now, like conquer the world or push myself harder to achieve my goals. If I could do this after a doubtful moment like this, then you can too!

I’ll admit this right now, in my first official year as a published writer, I made a promise to myself to grow as much as I can as a writer. I’ve been trying to write new debut pieces every time I join a new contributor platform, such as Unwritten here. I also made a huge vow to myself that I would write new and fresh pieces as often as any new ideas strike me, so I’m not sitting around repeating myself all the time. There’s nothing wrong with sharing some old favorites, but it’s best to keep the new ones coming along.

Another promise I made to myself for my first year as a published writer is to take risks and write fresh articles. I need to step out of my comfort zone no matter how hard it will be, or if it kills me; or at least when I run into a “writer doubt moment.” I know in my heart stretching the limits to my comfort zone may be the only way I’m gonna’ grow as a young published writer. The most important promise I made to myself during my first year as a young published writer is to be proud of every new thing I write. Whether I make it through a short story, a personal narrative, or a simple listicle, or anything in between, I know I will be prideful of what I write and accomplish.

My first goal proved to be a success so far. I am happy with the positive feedback I receive from writing fresh and new pieces. I am currently working on my second goal. It has been a serious struggle to be the youngest writer on the team right now to step out of my comfort zone, but I know it’s what I need to do to grow. The third goal will continue to come as I grow and reach outside of my comfort zone, that I’m sure of.

Being a young writer has been rewarding for me in more ways than I could have ever imagined possible. I have gotten to meet and work with so many other amazingly talented writers who I am extremely honored and proud to call my friends and coworkers.

The most rewarding part of writing for me is when readers see my articles and they tell me how much they are looking forward to reading my future pieces. That is truly the most amazing thing you can hear as a writer. My voice is being heard.

So, for all of you new, young published writers out there, if you’re doubting your talent right now, please don’t! You’re gonna’ do a great job with whatever comes your way. I have been in your shoes already, and when you doubt yourself as a writer and have that feeling of, ”I just want everyone to be proud of me as a young writer,” know that everyone will be proud of you, at least know that I certainly will be! Lastly, know you have a strong support system behind you on your journey.

To have support as a writer is the best thing you can have. It’s gonna’ be a wild ride but you got this so hang on tight!

Juliana Ruggiero

Juliana is 18 and fresh out of High school. She graduated with High honors. Writing is something she really enjoys doing and everyone that knows her tells her she has a gift for it. Juliana is a hopeless Italian food addict, loves meeting new people and making new friends. She is very laid back and easy going. Juliana is here to inspire everyone and give it her all. She doesn't have a bad bone in her body. Her career began in July of 2016 after reaching out and offering to be interviewed for The Abler Blog. Since that interview, after seeing all the positive feedback she was getting from everyone, it pushed her to do more with her writing! Pushing herself to do more has lead Juliana to some of the most kind and supportive people she could ask for! She is grateful that she took that "leap of faith."

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