Fireworks popping loudly in the vicinity are meant to wow with their colorfully vibrant displays. They are commonly used to celebrate the new year and new beginnings.
Normally, I am one of those people who tries to make new years resolutions. To give myself a base of what I wish to change or improve. This year, however, has been different. I made it a goal not to change anything.
I am more confident that I have been in all my almost 34 years.
I have had some amazing writing opportunities thrown my way and have taken advantage of every inch. I have felt so honored that I have been chosen to share some of my disability and personal stories with the world.
My writing style is full of profundity and truth. I enjoy writing to convey honesty and the genuine side. Sure, some of it may be turbulent and rough, but life is certainly not always perfect. Exposing some of my dark side has been very therapeutic for me. The negative things in your past tend to never stop resurfacing, no matter how hard you may try to push it away. Writing about it helps keep my emotions stable and in check. As someone who has attended professional counseling for several years, I can honestly say that writing sometimes works even better as a stress reliever. It is also helpful in reducing anxiety-provoking feelings.
I am just trying my best to be myself. Whether other people like it or not is up to them. I used to worry so much about what other people may think of me, including my freedom of expression. As I have grown older, I have shut down that insecurity. I have done that by realizing that in the end, my opinion of myself is what reigns supreme and matters most.
I know I am not the most beautiful person in the world appearance wise. However, I am satisfied with myself as a whole, and I believe that says more about me than any picture could ever convey. Just a few short years ago, I would not have been able to say that. In fact, I was often scared to look in the mirror because I hated the reflection staring back at me.
I have come an awfully long way, and I am extremely proud of the confident adult I have become. However, I know I can always improve. My overall goal is to be the best person I can possibly be without altering my authenticity. Attempting to fit in with others is a thing of the past. I understand I am not going to be everyone’s cup of tea, and that is fine. I am not going to taint my authenticity so that others will like me and accept me for who I am. Self-acceptance is quite the achievement, and it is something I certainly cherish.