We all arrive at a point in our lives where we have to let go of what isn’t meant to be. We have to let go of the people who should only be in our lives for a season, even if we want them to stay. Because these people that come in and out of our lives, no matter how big or small their role, are part of different life chapters, and there is always something to be learned. And one of the biggest things I’ve finally learned is that if someone wants to walk out of my life, I have to let them go.
With the friendships that grew apart, I’m grateful for the memories we shared. Grateful for the laughs, adventures, and long chats over coffee. Thank you for these good times, it’s because of them that I’ll never look back on our friendship with remorse. You left before things got too uncomfortable, too hurtful, before there was nothing left to say. You left when it was time.
To the people that were toxic, I’m thankful I eventually saw you for what you were. You called yourselves friends, but never wished me well. You showed up in my time of struggle only to try and keep me down. It may have taken some time and tears may have been shed, but I finally moved forward and left you behind. Thank you for showing your true colors.
As for the man I kept in my life for too long: I just wasn’t ready to say goodbye. I wasn’t ready to let go of hoping it would work out, that you would change your mind. You see, for a long time, I wasn’t ready for the truth. I wasn’t ready to accept that, despite what you told me, you only wanted me on your own terms and would continue to cause me heartache. Thank you for not choosing me, because I finally realized how much better I was without you.
They say you’re lucky if you can count your true friends on one hand, and over the years, I’ve found this to be true. So to those of you I count on one hand, there aren’t enough ways to tell you how grateful I am for our presence in each other’s lives, and how much I love you. We sometimes go months without talking, or live oceans apart, yet we pick up where we left off. We can sit in comfortable silence, and know what the other is thinking with one glance. Time and space has no effect on us. Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on, and my dose of harsh truth. For sometimes loving me more than I love myself, and accepting me as I am. I realize just how lucky I am when the people in my life that I would do anything for, are the ones that would do anything for me.
So to everyone who’s come and gone from my life, thank you. You’ll never know how much you’ve taught me about myself, relationships, love and acceptance. Thank you for leaving and thank you for staying. Thank you for the brief encounters, the almost relationships, the real relationships, the betrayals and the loyalty. Thank you for playing your role in my book of life.