To My Ex. With Love.

Hi, you.

How can I even possibly begin to sum up the 6.5 wonderful years we spent together? First, I want to tell you that you are the best guy, with the biggest heart, that I have ever met.

You deserve to know that.

There are so many things I am grateful to you for, including the many life lessons you helped me learn all the while holding my hand.

Thank you for being my lifeboat. When we met, it was a very difficult year in my life, and I clung on to you so tightly there were times I feared I would take you down with me. But instead, you kept us both afloat until I was able to start helping us paddle.

Thank you for seeing me in a way that no other man ever has before. Yes, I was always the girl that guys I dated bought flowers for, took out for nice dinner dates, and took home to meet their parents. But, you really dug deep and got to know ME. You allowed me to share my deepest fears, insecurities, dreams, and wishes. In doing this, you not only became my partner but also my best friend.

Thank you for your patience, and for never giving up on me, even in my worst moments. Admittedly, I went through some very “bratty phases” early on in our relationship. I was selfish. I was confrontational. I was demanding. At times, I was downright crazy. But I was young. And you gently helped me see the ways I could be better. The ways I could grow.

Thank you for always helping me stay grounded, even when my head was in the clouds.

Thank you for caring. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for laughing with me and crying with me. Thank you for all of it. Just… thank you.

Thank you for always pushing me to chase my dreams, even if that eventually meant our time together would end. You saw something in me that maybe I was not quite ready to see. You always told me that you knew I would accomplish so many big things, even when I doubted it myself. You always told me you loved watching me grow, and knew one day that I would be “ready to fly”.

Sometimes in life, no matter how hard we try to hold on to something, the universe has other plans. For the longest time, we grasped onto each other so tightly, even as our life paths were swiftly diverging. We clung so tightly because neither one of us was ready to let go. Maybe we still were not ready to let go, but our moment together in time had passed and we were not able to own it any longer.

It is possible we both knew in our hearts that we would not end up together for the long haul. In many ways, we are just two completely different people with different needs and wants out of this journey we call life. But, we held on to each other for as long as this universe would allow us to, because our love for one another was real and we wanted to keep it for as long as possible.

I do not regret a single moment that we shared, and I am so grateful to have been able to keep you for as long as I did. We still will have each other in the future, but just in a different way. No matter where our paths in life lead us next, I am confident that good things are in store ahead in both of our lives. I am always here for you, no matter what. Just like I know you will always be there for me too.

Thank you for always letting this bird fly.

Antonella Recchia

Antonella is a gypsy soul with a passion for traveling, experiencing other cultures, and trying new things. Her “happy places” include airports, libraries, and Japanese restaurants. She enjoys reading, creative writing, music, kickboxing, risky/high-speed activities, and food! Her favorite things in life are crafting a good story and making people laugh. While she is still on a journey to figure out her exact life purpose, she is on a mission to be what she’s destined to be!

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