Out of chaos comes clarity

Out of chaos comes clarity

Many years of working in the Emergency Room taught me at age 25 that life is short! My condition has reinforced that knowledge. We always think there’s another tomorrow but nothing in life is guaranteed. I was once a tenacious skilled ER nurse, now I’ve come to terms with the loss of my career as well as some friendships due to my lupus. I was diagnosed with lupus in the early 90’s. There are limited treatment options and there isn’t a cure. Dealing with lupus is not easy nor is dealing with any chronic illness. I’m warn out on a daily basis from my lupus and I just don’t have the fight in me like I used to. I’ve always been a caring giving type of person, enjoyed helping others. With the life I had once planned unattainable due to my limitations from lupus, I’ve had to refocus on the important things in life.

I often think of my lupus as a curse with the pain and limitations I endure but sometimes I can find the blessing. I have been blessed with the gift of time. Time to think. Time to reflect. Time to find another way to help others. I started writing as a coping mechanism. I hope to help someone else in their struggles, we all have struggles whether big or small. Some people can live their entire life without knowing their purpose but I was given a voice and a platform so I believe that’s my new purpose.

I’ve learned some survival skills that might be applicable to dealing with chaos in general, whether due to illness, injury or the ever changing world around us.
I’ve learned that I cannot control people around me but I can control how I respond.
I’ve learned to let some expectations go.
I’ve learned to limit situations that drain my energy, that includes unnecessary drama and arguments. I don’t want to fight over something senseless, it’s better to comprise quickly and put it behind me.

I’m still learning to make the most out of everyday by focusing on the positive. I can always find something good in people and things. Passing a kind word along can make a difference to someone.

I try to be present by living in the moment (Don’t let distractions keep you from enjoying what you have right now). Savor all the good things in life, from good food to good friends.

Take care of yourself first. You can’t help others if you’re run down. It’s like the airline mantra… put your oxygen mask on first then help others.

Find forgiveness, mostly to benefit yourself. Don’t let resentment or anger distract you from happiness.

Have respect for others.

We all have love inside us so show some humanity.

Happiness comes in many different forms. We don’t need to be rich or famous to be happy but we do need love. Love of self and love for others.

Maybe the chaos in this world will teach us to be kinder to each other. Maybe it will bring back morality and respect. Maybe there’s a brighter future.. we can only hope and pray. In the meantime, take care of yourself.


Michele Palermo

Michele is a retired registered nurse who spent 15 years in Emergency Medicine. That's where she learned there's a fragility to life. Diagnosed with lupus, after going through a divorce, taught her to be a survivor instead of a victim. With her career shortened by illness she turned to books. She fell in love with the written word as a young child. To her, words convey emotion. Her new passion is writing. As an aspiring author, she hopes to inspire others on this roller coaster called life.

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