The Truth Is, I Struggle Too

Just like everyone else, I struggle.

I sometimes struggle to manage everything when school life stands in the way.

Some days, I have lots of energy, but others, I have absolutely none.

I struggle to keep my emotions together.

In public, I always smile, trying not to worry anyone around me.

At home, though, I act differently.

I let myself have bad days. I don’t hide my emotions or keep a straight face. I know that if I do, it’s going to make me sick, so I let it all out.

In my grief, I become exhausted. I have no energy to do anything, even though I know that there are a million things to do.

Most days, the pain hurts so badly that I wish that none of these struggles happened in the first place. I wish that we could go back and fix it all, but I know in my heart that there’s no way that’s possible.

My loss hurts me more than anyone else in my family. At just 19 years old, I was the one who made the heartbreaking decision to let my father go. And having anxiety on top of it all certainly doesn’t help.

I’m trying to find the courage to move forward, but right now, I just can’t. I try to tell myself that I did the right thing, but it’s still hard, raw, and painful.

So don’t sit there thinking that I have it easy. I promise you I don’t. Just be there for me if I need support. That’s all I ask of you.


Juliana Ruggiero

Juliana is 18 and fresh out of High school. She graduated with High honors. Writing is something she really enjoys doing and everyone that knows her tells her she has a gift for it. Juliana is a hopeless Italian food addict, loves meeting new people and making new friends. She is very laid back and easy going. Juliana is here to inspire everyone and give it her all. She doesn't have a bad bone in her body. Her career began in July of 2016 after reaching out and offering to be interviewed for The Abler Blog. Since that interview, after seeing all the positive feedback she was getting from everyone, it pushed her to do more with her writing! Pushing herself to do more has lead Juliana to some of the most kind and supportive people she could ask for! She is grateful that she took that "leap of faith."

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