Some days I feel like I’m just floating, my head is just above water. The days of the week are pushing me along and I am barely keeping up. Do you ever feel like so, as if you are just going through the motions? The unexpected might occur, unplanned and the routine of the days keep going. You tell yourself, “just keep going.” It’s mid December and the year is almost all grown up. Well me too.
I woke up lighter today. Tears did surface to my eyes but I AM suppose to feel. Why? Because feeling is real, and real is magic. The pretend.. make believe.. wishing isn’t the magic of life and who would want to wish they had tears anyways? In the back of my mind I remember commenting just recently that I was not able to cry at this chapter of my life, how things change.
So – today I felt. ❤️
We like to bury sometimes or push feeling ANYTHING because that’s better or the safe thing to do. Reality is we end up being a tea pot, whistling.. like tea water steaming- we are past the point of boil. Feel your feelings, express them, embrace them.
I am aware, acknowledging that I am in an awakening. The signs have been all over. There was a point in my life, well reality is until just recently that I would say, “I am not soft with anything and just non-affectionate.” I feel as if I have come out of hibernation. My girlfriend just said to me the other day, “lately you’re mushy and I like it.” I denied it- played my normal tough, but she was right. My story, who I am has shifted, onto a new chapter.