One of the worst times of the year, you left this earth. December 24th, 2018.
The Lord decided it was your time to leave me. Before he decided it was your time to leave, you were the guy I looked up to as a guy role model and a buddy. I am the guy who resembled you in every way including your handsome looks and amazing personality that gives me the charm my girlfriend loves today.
I’m sorry I didn’t stay the whole time until you were officially gone. But I know you’re looking down right now and not getting mad at me for that. Because when you were here, you didn’t want me to see you when you were so sick. I assumed the same during your final hours on Christmas Eve 2018. I got in my car after leaving your house and cried the whole way home and it didn’t even feel like Christmas Eve anymore.
Now that you’re up there instead of down here, I am keeping in touch with my stepmom and my little sister you adopted from Russia. I know you don’t want me to forget about them especially my little sister. I’m going to be at my little sister’s college graduations and wedding. I will also give her away at her wedding if she decides to pick me since you aren’t here anymore to do so.
When it comes to me, I was grateful I got to tell you that I’m in love before you left. I feel very sad that the woman I love so much can’t meet you. I know she would have loved you a lot based on the way she loves me. I still went to see her after your service as planned because I knew you wanted me to.
All your friends know that I am just like the amazing man you were. I know you very well. You’re looking down right now and enjoying that I’m happily in love and you love her too! I miss you terribly, every day. I’ve been going through some old photos of our memories including the Florida trips we took together! The grieving process of you leaving wasn’t easy for me. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to go through in my entire life. But I’m getting better.
I’m going to continue to make you proud! I will accomplish everything I know you wanted me to even though you won’t be here to see it! But you’ll see it up there and you’ll be smiling! I will see you again someday! Until then, keep Grandma, Grandpa, and my Aunt company until I get there!
I love and miss you Dad!